Is It Normal ? ~ Written by Lyndie Sorenson  / Mama (mother)

Is it normal to feel distant ...
to cry most every day?
Is it normal to have sorrow...
to wish this life away?

Is it normal to be hiding...
my thoughts that live within?
Is it normal to feel madness...
so totally worn thin?

Is it normal to have heartache...
as many years go by?
Is it normal to keep wishing...
that we had said goodbye?

Is it normal to ask questions...
that plague my every thought?
Is it normal to be angry...
to feel so distraught?

Is it normal to keep wishing...
that you would come to me?
Is it normal to have visions...
that you are soaring free?

Is it normal to be looking...
for special signs from you?
Yes... all of this is normal
because I'm someone new

In loving memory of Joey and his heavenly buddies
Lyndie
© 2008



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Happy Birthday Angel Tony -I am so so sorry this is late  / Terry-Faiths Mom (Friend of moms )
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Tony's birthday  / Natalie Camp (MOM TO ANGEL FRIEND )
Sylvia,
I have thought about you all week as we remember your handsome Tony on his birthday. I feel like our boys have so much in common other than their names. Today is Anthony's 19 month angelversary and his birthday is also this month. I know our boys are both watching over us as we work hard and tirelessly to honor their lives. I am praying that we both get visits from our Anthony's tonight. I am keeping you in my prayers my friend. You are not alone in this.
Love, Natalie

Psst.... Anthony and Tony,
You guys need to quit playing so much up there and come and visit your mamma's in our dreams. I know there is just so much to do and to see, but please make a special visit and let us see your smiling faces in our dreams.  Have fun celebrating your birthdays in Heaven.
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Sad New Year  / Jean, John's Mom (GP)

  
Beloved angel Tony

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY  / MINDIE /. SETH'S MOM
Wishing you a wonderful birthday up above... and might you send a sign to your mother filled with all of your love. Hugs & Kisses from Heaven & Earth. Close

MERRY CHRISTMAS  / Jean, John's Mom

Tony

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MERRRY CHRISTMAS TO MY FAMILY-ILOVE YOU  / TERRY-FAITHSMOM
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Merry Christmas angel Tony!!  / Terry-Faiths Mom
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Thy Will Be Done  / Sylvia Vaughn (Mother)
The Lord said ...

"I'll lend for a little time a child of mine, for you to love the while he lives, and mourn for when he's dead.
It may be six or seven years - or 28 or 33, but will you, until I call him back, take care of him for me?
He'll brings his charms to gladden you, and should his stay be brief, you'll have his warm memories as solace for your grief."
"I cannot promise he will stay, since all from earth return, but there are lessons taught down there I want this child to learn, I've looked the world over in my reach for teachers true, and from the throngs that crowd life's lanes, I have selected you.
Now will you give him all your love, and not think the labor vain, Nor hate me when I come to call to take him back again?"

"I fancied that I heard them say:

DEAR LORD THY WILL BE DONE !

For all the joy thy child shall bring, the risk of grief we'll run. We'll shelter him with tenderness, we'll love him while we may. And for the happiness we've known, forever grateful stay.
But should the Angels call him, much sooner than we planned, we'll have the bitter grief that comes and try to understand."
AUTHOR UNKNOWN

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Letter to Santa ~ Written by Lyndie Sorenson  / Sylvia Vaughn (Mother)






Dear Santa can you see me
With tears upon my face
A heart so badly broken
Missing his embrace

As I write this letter...
to express my only wish
Dear Santa, please remember
One gift upon my list

His smile and his laughter
His hugs and kisses too
Dear Santa I am pleading
To make my wish come true

I haven't been quite perfect
I've tried the best I can
But being you are Santa...
You might just change the plan

Each day I wake to sorrow
Pain that I can't flee
Dear Santa I am asking
Could you bring him back to me?

Dear Santa could you find it...
within your kind warm heart
To bring him home for Christmas
So we are not apart?


In loving memory of Joey and his heavenly buddies
Lyndie
© December 2007

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They Christmas Ornament ~ Written by Lyndie Sorenson  / Sylvia Vaughn (Mother)
Ornaments all packed away
Labeled fragile handle with care
As I open up the special box...
It has been another difficult year

I carefully unwrap each ornament
Place them lovingly on the tree
My mind drifts back to holidays
When you were here with me

The ornaments you made in school
Those with your sweet face
I hold them close against my heart
As If it's you I do embrace

The tears again begin to flow
This pain is deep within
Each ornament that shines so bright
The way our lives had been

The Christmas music softly plays
Outside the snow does fall
Inside my heart still broken
It shall never mend at all

I place the final ornament
Upon the Christmas tree
I wish I wish upon a star
That you were here with me

In loving memory of Joey and his heavenly buddies
Lyndie
© December 2006


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TONY / Sylvia Vaughn (Mother)
MAKING IT THROUGH

The pain is all around me and I don't know what to do.
How can I bear it all the time and try to make it through?
I always knew I loved you; I just didn't know how deep.
I really thought you would be mine, for all my life to keep.

I liked you and I loved you more with all the passing days.
You were wonderful and marvelous in many different ways.
Now I don't know where, or how, to send you all my love.
Is there some way for me to find you in your world above?

Who were you? Were you 'real' and did you in fact exist?
Most days I seem to search for you - you are so very missed.
Sometimes I can picture you and you feel so very near,
But I can't show my love now I can't find you here.

My mind knows but just can't understand your death.
Or how it can still be possible for me to take a breath.
You're so much a part of me, how can you just be 'gone';
and how can a broken heart still beat and carry on?

I wish I could be someone else but that would mean no 'you'.
I must live with pain and longing but give life a brighter hue.
I must find a place to send my love, which grows with every day.
So let me know that you're alright, and love will find its way.

Author Unknown

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My Blessings  / Dianna Jacobs (GP Group/ Mom )
 Hello my dear friend and I am using more of your
guestbook space because I forgot to add something I
felt very important.

I found my daughter drowned in her bath tub due to a seizure
and I have to live with that nightmare, but I can't imagine
the pain of losing my child by the hand of another as you
have, especially that person who you trusted and thought
a friend. 

My daughter took diet pills with ephedra and the ephedra
caused her seizures, that which I did not know until
some time after her death.  I did not even know what
ephedra was and I was surprised to find out I had also
taken it in diet pills at times.


My biggest hugs to you
Dianna
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May God Bless you and your family  / Dianna Jacobs (G/P Group/ mom )
Hello Sylvia

Thank you for allowing me to add Tony's website to
not only our local bereavement group, but also to
my daughter, Kanda's site.  She and Tony were only
a couple of years difference in age and we lost Kanda
5 weeks before her 31st birthday. What a cute couple
they would be together. I noticed Tony was also 31.

I also copied your entire poem as I have that same poem
on my site and when I found it, UNKNOWN AUTHOR  was
at the end of it.  I hope many will do as you did, and fill
in their child's name, I had not thought of doing that
and felt good when adding it to the 2 websites, IN MEMORY
OF YOUR PRECIOUS TONY.

I am proud to be a member of G/P, but just don't have the
time to be that active right now, hopefully I will get my act
together and get to know many of you on personal level.

My Blessings to you and family, also my hugs
Dianna Jacobs
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Happy Thanksgiving Angel Tony!!  / Terry-Faiths Mom (friend of moms )
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Celebration of Joey  / Terrie Whiteman (friend of Mom )
How beautiful your site is, and the music is super.
I know how much your mom loves you so don't forget to send 
those hugs and signs.

Love,Terrie
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The Holidays .....written by Lyndie Sorenson in Memory of her Joey  / Sylvia Vaughn (Mom)
With the holidays upon us
Stores filled and set to sell
Families sharing stories
A faint twinkling bell

Lights off in the distance
Sparkling oh so bright
Ornaments are placed just so
That glisten through the night

Snowflakes float around me
Which remind me of the years
Back to holidays so special
Now they often just bring tears

I remember when you opened
Presents beautifully wrapped
The great big smile on your face
As you found your baseball cap

Surrounded by the gifts
That reflected our deep love
For my child that I long for
Who now lives in heaven above

No longer is there magic
Holidays will never be the same
Now I light a single candle
Honor you within it's flame

I wonder how this happened
Wish this were some big mistake
That each day, not only holidays
Bring such sadness and heartache

I will cherish all the days
When you were here, right by my side
Bittersweet the memories
That hurt so deep inside

Everyone enjoys the hustle
All the happiness and fun
But for me it won't be joyous
For I lost my precious son

In loving memory of Joey and his heavenly buddies
Lyndie Sorenson
© revised November 2007







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God Bless our angels!  / Shelly Coufal
Sylvia this is a beautiful tribute to Tony, I know you miss him everyday, God bless you and your family your in my thoughts and prayers! Love Shelly Coufal (CRaigs MOM) Close

Thanksgiving Blessings ~ Written by Lyndie Sorenson  / Sylvia (Mama)
Thanksgiving blessings, wishes, and love
To all of our children who now live above
For each of us here left to share in this day
Our memories shall take us to a time far away

To Thanksgivings when each of our children were here
We would gather together for holiday cheer
Those days gone forever stored deep in our heart
Back to when life had not fallen apart

Now one chair sit empty on Thanksgiving Day
Pain in our hearts simply won't go away
We long for you always, wish you were here
So difficult without you at this time of year

Six weeks from Thanksgiving to the New Year
Bring us much sorrow and so many tears
To live on without you each day and each night
Is now our new normal, a terrible plight

So as we sit down to our Thanksgiving meal
A mask on our face, and a heart that won't heal
We hope that somehow we will feel you near....
And maybe our heartache won't be so severe

In loving memory of Joey and his heavenly buddies
Lyndie Sorenson
© November 2006

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Today I Cried ...Written by Christine Ross in memory of Lucas Ross  / Sylvia Vaughn (mother)
TODAY I CRIED

...by Christine Ross in memory of Lucas Christopher Ross 1979 - 2001

Today, I cried
Because you died.

Today, I smiled
For just awhile.

Today, I laughed
And then I gasped.

Today, I cried
Because I laughed.

© 2003 - Christine Ross

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